SNAPSHOTS OF OUR LIVES.
I attended my photography class today abt reading photographs...photographs are used to document an event, a story and also death. One series of pics was shown on the life and death of an aids victim whom was also a friend of the photographer, nann. It is disheartening to snap a dying friend and at least she left behind a story to tell and remember.
I felt that everyone we encountered are snapshots of our lives. The people we passed by everyday, our friends, relatives, loved ones, etc ..they formed little images with the things they did to us and these images are collaged into a mural which is imprinted in our brains. These images cannot be erased till we die. We`can only blurred some of them and sharpened the others. Everyone keeps a painful folder which they wish they could delete it but they can't..not becos they do want to let go but sometimes letting it go may be more painful. Even with time, they are still there hiding at one corner of your heart. This is especially true when u are hurt by someone u once treasure so dearly....that his every moves, smiles, words have became a part of your life.
It is hard to detached that part of you....
Even as time passes by, U may think that u have grown stronger and is brave enough to face him but when u really meet him on the streets...there may a sudden surge of happiness and u don't know the reason why you feel a sense of happiness or relief when you see him...U may think that : "Hey! I shld be angry or if I am not angry ..at least I shld have neutral feelings for him...I shld not be feeling anything for him..." ..perhaps deep down in your heart..if you have the courage to reach deep down and dug it out...u know that u still love him..but the love may not be as strong or the same kinda of love that you had last time...you still love him becos you wanna thank him for leaving some sweet memories in your life and making you a stronger/better/more forgiving person. Face it with your courage and don't feel ashamed that you still have some feelings for him...just remember u are a kind and forgiving soul. If the hurt is too deep...don't be afraid to hate... U have the power to hate too!
Sometimes, it is better to hate than to forgive cos to forgive means more hurt will be imprinted in your memories. Cos you know u stil love him... so let them say that you are self-centred, and unforgiving. Live for yourself...yes! there may be some regrets that you may not have anymore chance to see him again if you choose to hate him..but this will be a better measure than to see him again and knowing that he had someone else in his arms. No friendship after love........if u still feel the hurt. " let it go before you wake up one day and know that you have hurt yourself"--bullshit quote!
Sometimes...I do hope that he is not doing well .......................................don't u share the same sentiments?
ai no kami
I attended my photography class today abt reading photographs...photographs are used to document an event, a story and also death. One series of pics was shown on the life and death of an aids victim whom was also a friend of the photographer, nann. It is disheartening to snap a dying friend and at least she left behind a story to tell and remember.
I felt that everyone we encountered are snapshots of our lives. The people we passed by everyday, our friends, relatives, loved ones, etc ..they formed little images with the things they did to us and these images are collaged into a mural which is imprinted in our brains. These images cannot be erased till we die. We`can only blurred some of them and sharpened the others. Everyone keeps a painful folder which they wish they could delete it but they can't..not becos they do want to let go but sometimes letting it go may be more painful. Even with time, they are still there hiding at one corner of your heart. This is especially true when u are hurt by someone u once treasure so dearly....that his every moves, smiles, words have became a part of your life.
It is hard to detached that part of you....
Even as time passes by, U may think that u have grown stronger and is brave enough to face him but when u really meet him on the streets...there may a sudden surge of happiness and u don't know the reason why you feel a sense of happiness or relief when you see him...U may think that : "Hey! I shld be angry or if I am not angry ..at least I shld have neutral feelings for him...I shld not be feeling anything for him..." ..perhaps deep down in your heart..if you have the courage to reach deep down and dug it out...u know that u still love him..but the love may not be as strong or the same kinda of love that you had last time...you still love him becos you wanna thank him for leaving some sweet memories in your life and making you a stronger/better/more forgiving person. Face it with your courage and don't feel ashamed that you still have some feelings for him...just remember u are a kind and forgiving soul. If the hurt is too deep...don't be afraid to hate... U have the power to hate too!
Sometimes, it is better to hate than to forgive cos to forgive means more hurt will be imprinted in your memories. Cos you know u stil love him... so let them say that you are self-centred, and unforgiving. Live for yourself...yes! there may be some regrets that you may not have anymore chance to see him again if you choose to hate him..but this will be a better measure than to see him again and knowing that he had someone else in his arms. No friendship after love........if u still feel the hurt. " let it go before you wake up one day and know that you have hurt yourself"--bullshit quote!
Sometimes...I do hope that he is not doing well .......................................don't u share the same sentiments?
ai no kami
posted by Vera Pang at 9/09/2005 05:56:00 午後
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